i'm not sure

what is right and what is wrong anymore.

I know I wanna go to heaven.

It kills me to not get the daily dose on your life.

but if it makes you better and me better I will stop putting

my grubby little hands on every switch in the circuit.

life is spinning out of control- I refuse to fall victim.

letting go is the hardest part, but I feel like walking to an invisible distance is worse.

A week and a day ago was bullshit, there aren't any adults around here. 

And it's misfortunate we can't be friends, I think the world of your blood.

 Loved Despite of Great Faults

you will move
with me we will
stay still and
words will move around us.
surround us in gold
and in our world
we will be
silent.

you will swim
to me we will
be free
and words will move around us
swim around us
surround us in schools
and in our cool
we'll be reminded.

that you refuse to fade away
i hide to stay the same
where do we go from here
i don't know.

for me you flower to be chosen
i fall down to be noticed
where do we go from here i don't know.

it was a time
a way of life
the only secrets
we talked about
were all the fears
in all these years
we spent together

Maddening Cloud

Sure you can look back 
If it means moving on 
And you can take me back 
But you must come home 
We are both in a maddening cloud 

And you can touch me there 
Just don’t leave me alone 
And you can call me softly 
When I dream and ask for more 
You can slow and fold and mold my mind 

And she said 
I can’t feel my toes 
And she must be alone 
And far too cold 

And he stares 
Like he doesn’t see 
He must be scared 
And far too lost 

Under and over 
We must have glanced 
Face to face 
We’ve had to dance 
We’re both in a maddening cloud 

Sure you can step back 
If it means moving on 
And you take me back 
But you must be alone 
You can choke and smoke and rock my mind 

(BLONDE REDHEAD)

ZzZzZzZzZ goodnight moon